Lonely laying there

No partner in sight

Was it lost?

You lay alone and stepped on

Cast off dirty and abandoned

You wonder if you will find your match

Will you be relevant again,

If you do not find your sole mate

Will you end up alone.

With no match are you useful

Ending in the garbage

Ending as a rag

Or a new life as art

or a new life as a puppet

That brings happiness and purpose

He comes unexpectedly

Showing only to me

I feel him and see him like he is able to touch but he is not real

Chasing me in my dreams

Why shadow man?

I have this love for you but you want to hurt me kill me

Replace me with you

What did I do to you?

Have I hurt you?

Have I wronged you?

Your appearance scares me

You never speak but I know you want me to leave.

Is it my time to leave?

Am I standing on the shore looking towards the sea

To see how the black sea turns to blue as you look to the horizon

Is that you?

You need to have the black shadow in order to see the light?

Are you just me in a different form?

A new me trying to replace the old.

I want to go so many ties holding me on the shore

So dark I cannot see you

Shine the light let me see you shadow man.

I want to move from black to blue

From darkness to light

To be reborn as you and let the old me be history.

I want to be the person I could never see or touch but knows is there

Let me live shadow man

I stare at the empty seat

What happened

Immediately my mind says “it’s me!”

No explanation, no words just the empty seat

How more fitting scene

A man that never goes out

Not because he can’t

he does not like to eat alone

Now he sits alone. The pity of the server

Alone with a meal for two

Staring at his phone wishing he could just disappear

Vanish become invisible

Box it up

I am done

Our time
Our escape
Our secret
An admiration that is ours
Special because we both feel it
Different but the same

Our escape to a sanctuary
Two of us share an embrace
Cuddling, nuzzling, tickling
Secret time, It’s ours we don’t want to share.
We are fine having this secret.

The world can’t judge us
We are in a world where we judge ourselves
It’s wrong but so right.

So we keep our time hidden
Special to us because we are sharing
A memory, joy, a love
The love of feeling that moment
It will end we both know it
No future no past just us together in this moment.
This moment I wish would never end

Here she comes again
What should I do
Avoid her, pass her by
Take the chance and get close
I feel so guilty like a thief stealing
Or a kid that steals from the candy store
When she smiles I feel she has filled me with joy
If she knew how much she was giving would she keep her smile
I don’t know her name to me she is the woman with the beautiful smile
Should I see if she smiles at me today take the chance and steal that amazing feeling
To walk away feeling like I won the lottery
If I tell her how I feel when she gives me a smile would she keep it
Never give me another knowing how valuable it is
Today I will take the chance and see if she gives me her priceless smile.

I love you
So easy to say
People say the words
People live the words
Words can be meaningless

Comfort, desire to please, fear of loss cause these words to come out
How do I know you mean them?
Do you know what the words mean?
Do they mean the same to you as they do to me?

Buy me flowers take me to dinner tell me you love me
Hold my hand look into my eyes and tell me you love me
Yell, scream, belittle and hit me and tell me you love me
Lie, cheat and ignore me and tell me you love me

You tell me you love me
You write poems sing songs and profess your love
You tell me every chance you get

But do you ever ask me to dance?